redemption

the expression of voice:
the voice that's only heard
in the silence;
the gentle sound 
of your own soul, calling,
asking to be received
at least by you
with a loving embrace;
the song of your heart
waiting
wanting to be heard;
the one which dares to ask
what if you no longer had to be
afraid of being afraid;
the one which can surrender
to every loving vibration,
can welcome it in
can say a wholehearted
yes
to being
alive.

Shadow Man

He lives there on the floor,

always looking up

at a reality above

he cannot comprehend.

His world is flat,

though he does not know what flat is.

Shadow Man moves and flows with the light,

always dependent on that other one

for his position in the world.

Sometimes he dances,

a dappled animation

that merges excitedly with

other shadows passing.

I wonder how the world looks

in his view:

a mostly horizontal perspective

which rises up only when

there is something else

to reflect or perhaps project upon.

Amalgam of the Damned

It was not the kind of place
you'd really want to be in:
even when they 'did it up'
they kept the same stained carpet.
One-eyed Jacques
(no one knew his real name)
stood,
kept his drink close
and people at a distance,
unable as he was
to take in anything
with any real depth.
The scattering of old men sat,
mostly silent,
their lives and wives gone,
too tired now to be bitter
though that's what they drank.
June was there, 
glazed as she was,
with her crepe paper décolletage,
her obsession with the King:
she'd show you her tattoo
before you could say
no thanks,
sing with her broken voice
the only songs she'd ever allowed
to mean anything.
And the barman,
nicotine-yellow he said,
cirrhosis to anyone else who'd cared
but nobody did,
nor did they want the caution.
Once a day, the pack
with more years ahead than behind
would stumble in:
cheap food and booze their magnet,
they brought their excitement with them.
The patron sinners,
as the barman called 
his only source of familiarity,
looked on, confused,
reminded as they were
of something they'd never had.
June loved this kind, uncaptivated audience
to share her same stories with each time,
while Jacques' resentment 
would build until
the smell of his fear 
was overpowering,
his incoherent mumblings
became shouted bouts of rants.
It was the kind of place,
surrounded by
nosy but uninterested parties,
to lose the one you loved
and find someone much worse,
where people lived their brightest days
in perpetual darkness.

Voices

voices
so many voices
asking to be heard
begging to be heard
shouting to be heard
so much noise.

when is there silence
to hear the sound
of my own sweet voice?
the one telling me
soft now beloved,
soft and slow,

doing and being
needn't be enemies.
and I know why I have 
stopped my practice:
because everything
has become a meditation

everything
an opportunity for this
exquisite listening
to the sound of
my own soul
calling.

The Vessel

The old woman sits,
her milky eyes see nought now
but shapes bent out 
by the flames of the fire beside her.

Her bones still strong,
her skin the give away,
made as it is of the sheerest silk
crumpled and dyed in hues of purple and blue.

She can no longer hear the stories
which now fill her belly, her heart:
her mind, though bright, has absorbed
all the cries for attention it can absorb.

So she sits and others gather
While she pours forth her timelessness,
speaking of the love she learned
in a lifetime of heartache and joy.

A strong voice radiates her light, her dark,
valueless and priceless in equal measure.
She is who she is with no apology
and all who hear her rest in that.

In the lav with Charles

I'm spending ten minutes per wee
just to hang out with him,
which is a lot of time
in a person's day.

It's a dirty kind of lust:
one of pleasurable grunts
in hidden dark corners,
subterfuge and coveting.

He either makes the profane sacred
or the sacred profane,
I'm not sure which,
maybe both. But I do know

this dead man reaches
down, into my guts,
dragging my heart with him,
messes around there

makes me moan
oh yes thank you god
for this
and I want more.

Do not give me your heart

I do not want you to give me your heart,
Nor will I give you mine.
The world spins here,
The heart-centre of being,
So you exist in me already,
I in you.

I want you to keep yourself,
As I intend to;
To call yourself home:
No one ever said
You've spread yourself too thick.

We can never know each other
The way we know ourselves
So let's share what that's like:
Tell me the experience of your heart
In this moment and the next,
What makes it laugh and long for,
Weep and sing about.

Oh please God
Do not give your heart
But love it holy,
Wholly for you;
Let mine open and close to you,
As yours will close and open.

Everything lives here:
Let us walk this life alone together,
All one.

Let's share that.